Today I feel different.
I lasted up until late last night without a smoke ... almost a whole smoke free day .. almost!
Then the hot flushes and panic set in, it honestly felt like I was withdrawing from crack cocaine not little old cigs! I gave in and smoked three not all at once of course but still! Not quite sure if I enjoyed them or not but I smoked them all the way through.
All in all smoke count for Day 4 was 3, another 50% decrease.
I return to my opening statement. I woke up this morning, not having taken my pill yet but I'm not reaching for the tobacco. Even though I only smoked 3 times yesterday I feel like I smoked 50. Very strange!! I guess champix is kicking in. I am feeling a little non smokerish, maybe im just experiencing dillusions, a side effect from the drug! Hey its better than feeling sick all the time like most people.
Very nervous about next week now, the withdrawel was very uncomfortable and I wont have a backout clause this time. Maybe I can get some morphine and knock myself out for a good month till its all over!
If I continue with my 50% daily decrease today I should have smoked 1.5 cigs ... yeah right
Thankyou to Richard who gave a simple suggestion to yesterday's challenge at first I laughed at such a simple idea but its not that bad. I might just give it a try!
If I have more than one reader, especially smokers or ex-smokers, Id love to hear your stories and that you do actually exist! I hope my friends are reading this and think about joining in, you know who you are (Ritchie) cough cough.
Come on people this is the world wide web and Im feeling so alone in my efforts to free myself from the demon grip of nic.
He he starting to lose it maybe .. I wonder what Zoe is like smoke free??
Anyway its 9pm popped morning and evening pills smoked one cig .. dunno if I liked that one either. The sensation I crave doesnt seem to be there but right now I still want another one! Not to worry I am still way ahead of my schedule with the program. In six days I will be climbing the walls and this blog should get interesting!
What next?
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Monday, April 5, 2010
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Day 4 cntd....
Just had dinner and really really want that smoke now so I am blogging instead!
I havent had a cigerette today, I am not planning on bringing my start date forward but I do want to see how long I can hold out ... lets call this a dry run.
I think I have kicked the morning smoke habit but after dinner smoke and pre bed smoke were big rituals and are gonna be tough to get rid of. I need to come up with something that will replace those. If I have any readers please put forward your suggestions.
I havent had a cigerette today, I am not planning on bringing my start date forward but I do want to see how long I can hold out ... lets call this a dry run.
I think I have kicked the morning smoke habit but after dinner smoke and pre bed smoke were big rituals and are gonna be tough to get rid of. I need to come up with something that will replace those. If I have any readers please put forward your suggestions.
Day 4
So its day 4, today isnt too important but marks a few things:
-One week today and I WILL BE A NON SMOKER
-Today the dosage goes up to 0.5mg morning and evening
Fell back a little bit last night, after my last post I went to bed but could not sleep for love nor money. After about an hour of lying in bed I gave in and had another cigarette. I know very bold but atleast my final count was 6 for the whole day which is still a big drop!!
Bit disappointed by that but at the same time the difference in me in the space of 3 or 4 days is pretty good.
While I was sitting there wide awake, I started thinking about what I would talk about today. Alot of ideas were flying around my mind but the one thing that was at the forefront was my mouth.
What the bleep are you talking about I hear you say!
Smoking makes me very thirsty, its something that I have just accepted and ignored over the years. It would be a norm to down a bottle of wine to quench that thirst of a friday evening and be nibbling on junk food to soak up the alcohol and mask the smokey taste in my mouth. Last night I learned something. I was very content with two glasses of wine and didnt go for any snacks. Has smoking cultivated the way I drink and eat too? I am starting to that maybe it has. Most people gain the extra 6 pounds giving up the smokes, maybe I'll lose 6 pounds. Wouldnt that be a great double achievement!
Anyway, day 4 commences without any dramas. Still no side effects from the drugs, the hulk monster hasnt appeared quite yet, I think we shall leave him til next week when the real test begins. I pop my pill in the morning and skip that wake up smoke, new routines are building kicking the old ones to the curb.
Still full of optimism as the journey progresses.
More thoughts to come later as I push away those cravings ...
-One week today and I WILL BE A NON SMOKER
-Today the dosage goes up to 0.5mg morning and evening
Fell back a little bit last night, after my last post I went to bed but could not sleep for love nor money. After about an hour of lying in bed I gave in and had another cigarette. I know very bold but atleast my final count was 6 for the whole day which is still a big drop!!
Bit disappointed by that but at the same time the difference in me in the space of 3 or 4 days is pretty good.
While I was sitting there wide awake, I started thinking about what I would talk about today. Alot of ideas were flying around my mind but the one thing that was at the forefront was my mouth.
What the bleep are you talking about I hear you say!
Smoking makes me very thirsty, its something that I have just accepted and ignored over the years. It would be a norm to down a bottle of wine to quench that thirst of a friday evening and be nibbling on junk food to soak up the alcohol and mask the smokey taste in my mouth. Last night I learned something. I was very content with two glasses of wine and didnt go for any snacks. Has smoking cultivated the way I drink and eat too? I am starting to that maybe it has. Most people gain the extra 6 pounds giving up the smokes, maybe I'll lose 6 pounds. Wouldnt that be a great double achievement!
Anyway, day 4 commences without any dramas. Still no side effects from the drugs, the hulk monster hasnt appeared quite yet, I think we shall leave him til next week when the real test begins. I pop my pill in the morning and skip that wake up smoke, new routines are building kicking the old ones to the curb.
Still full of optimism as the journey progresses.
More thoughts to come later as I push away those cravings ...
Day 3 ... the end
Well wonders will never cease. I have had two glasses of wine, decided to drink them slowly and savour the taste. Turns out I didnt really crave cigarettes that badly on the booze. Just had one between glasses and that was it. Feel a bit tired earlier than usual so I am heading to bed. Final count for the day is 5 ... another 50% drop
GO ME!
GO ME!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Day 3 ctnd ...
Well its 10 pm, I have just finished my thrid smoke of the evening. I am happy with my progesse, 3 cigarettes in all day is great but I am concerned that I am enjoying them .. just putting off the inevitable. Lets hope this fades with my techniques.
I have decided to have a drink tonight so I have a feeling I might be giving in to tempation later!
I have decided to have a drink tonight so I have a feeling I might be giving in to tempation later!
Day 3
I went to bed last night having smoked a total of 10 cigerettes, thats a 50% drop in consumption. I am very pleased and hope it continues. I havent given champix enough time to work through my system yet but I am already seeing great things with a little will power (that I never knew I had!).
So today is day 3, I had a good nights sleep, no side affects so far. I take my pill straight away and skip my morning smoke ... I cant remember the last time I did this! I've kept my mind busy and still no cigarettes today by pushing away the cravings. Do I want a cigarette because they are there or do I want a cigarette because I NEED one? Im not quite sure yet.
So today is day 3, I had a good nights sleep, no side affects so far. I take my pill straight away and skip my morning smoke ... I cant remember the last time I did this! I've kept my mind busy and still no cigarettes today by pushing away the cravings. Do I want a cigarette because they are there or do I want a cigarette because I NEED one? Im not quite sure yet.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Day 2
I wake very early, refreshed, in good form and ready for the day! It is Good Friday and I am feeling good!
I wait a couple of hours to take my as I wanted to keep it in line with yesterday's time but this just gave me pangs so I wont be making the same mistake twice. Tomorrow will be pill before anything!!!
I got a buzz off of the pill day which was interesting. Legal highes wahooooooo!! Only lasted maybe 10 minutes then I was back to normal, asides from that no other side effects. Still smoking through the day but making a real conscious effort to delay the cravings by leaving it for five minutes etc... I have had 6 cigerettes all day which is amazing for me. I am at a minimum 20 a day smoker so I am very pleased and hope that this is the beginning of another sucessful story.
Before I started this blog I wanted to have a cigerette, I roled it up (no tailor mades for me!) and it is sitting beside me next to the lighter. But then I started writing and an hour later its still there. I think the key is keeping busy, take your mind off of it and the cravings will go away. For that reason I dont care if no one reads my blog, it is helping me achieve my goals (saying that, I secretly hope people do read it!).
I read an article today about quitting and it made the obvious point that us addicts use it as a way to deal with life.. If we are hungry, we smoke. If we are upset, we smoke. If we are bored, we smoke. If we are tired, we smoke. It suggested finding other ways to react to these situations. It mentioned the achronym HALT which stood for Hungry Angry Lonely Tired. It is important to know why we smoke, once we recognise that then hopefully we can find an alternative to smoking as a reaction to an event. If your hungry, eat (go for the healthy stuff). If your angry, just cool down. If your Lonely, ring a pal or write a blog! If your tired, go to bed and get some sleep! This is really good advise and I think something that I will remember and stick by. On to day 3 with more optimism!
I wait a couple of hours to take my as I wanted to keep it in line with yesterday's time but this just gave me pangs so I wont be making the same mistake twice. Tomorrow will be pill before anything!!!
I got a buzz off of the pill day which was interesting. Legal highes wahooooooo!! Only lasted maybe 10 minutes then I was back to normal, asides from that no other side effects. Still smoking through the day but making a real conscious effort to delay the cravings by leaving it for five minutes etc... I have had 6 cigerettes all day which is amazing for me. I am at a minimum 20 a day smoker so I am very pleased and hope that this is the beginning of another sucessful story.
Before I started this blog I wanted to have a cigerette, I roled it up (no tailor mades for me!) and it is sitting beside me next to the lighter. But then I started writing and an hour later its still there. I think the key is keeping busy, take your mind off of it and the cravings will go away. For that reason I dont care if no one reads my blog, it is helping me achieve my goals (saying that, I secretly hope people do read it!).
I read an article today about quitting and it made the obvious point that us addicts use it as a way to deal with life.. If we are hungry, we smoke. If we are upset, we smoke. If we are bored, we smoke. If we are tired, we smoke. It suggested finding other ways to react to these situations. It mentioned the achronym HALT which stood for Hungry Angry Lonely Tired. It is important to know why we smoke, once we recognise that then hopefully we can find an alternative to smoking as a reaction to an event. If your hungry, eat (go for the healthy stuff). If your angry, just cool down. If your Lonely, ring a pal or write a blog! If your tired, go to bed and get some sleep! This is really good advise and I think something that I will remember and stick by. On to day 3 with more optimism!
Day 1
So its week one!! Wish me luck!
I immediately went down to the nearest pharmacy I could find to get the wonder drug that will help me to stop smoking cancer sticks!
It comes in a lovely packaging, I wish all medication came in this format. You can clearly see where you are in your course at a glance.
For the first 4 days you take one 0.5mg pill while continuing to smoke. I like the idea of easing you into it.
First decision to make, what is my quiting day??
After much thought I have decided on April 11th 2010. It is my sister's wedding with various events on 8th to the 10th, so I thought I can afford to slip up without cheating and I should be too diseased with a hangover to even want to smoke on the 11th!! So this is my final date.
At 11am I pop the first pill .... Day 1 of my journey commences
Im a little scared, even though the successes are high the side effects can be brutal! Luckily I feel fine, my stomach was a feeling a little sick but apart from that happy days!!! Smoked a little less than usual, making a conscious effort to put off those cravings! Feeling very optimistic with a "I can do this" attitude ... very unlike me :)
Went to bed relaxed and happy.
I immediately went down to the nearest pharmacy I could find to get the wonder drug that will help me to stop smoking cancer sticks!
It comes in a lovely packaging, I wish all medication came in this format. You can clearly see where you are in your course at a glance.
For the first 4 days you take one 0.5mg pill while continuing to smoke. I like the idea of easing you into it.
First decision to make, what is my quiting day??
After much thought I have decided on April 11th 2010. It is my sister's wedding with various events on 8th to the 10th, so I thought I can afford to slip up without cheating and I should be too diseased with a hangover to even want to smoke on the 11th!! So this is my final date.
At 11am I pop the first pill .... Day 1 of my journey commences
Im a little scared, even though the successes are high the side effects can be brutal! Luckily I feel fine, my stomach was a feeling a little sick but apart from that happy days!!! Smoked a little less than usual, making a conscious effort to put off those cravings! Feeling very optimistic with a "I can do this" attitude ... very unlike me :)
Went to bed relaxed and happy.
The Beginning
What is this blog all about?
Hello I am a heavy heavy smoker and I need help!
I went to my doctor the other day for a full check up. After being poked and proded for over an hour he started having a go at me for being a smoker and said my lungs weren't in great shape. As it turns out I have been thinking of quiting for some time now but need a helping hand (afraid of failing mainly).
The lovely doctor gave me a prescription for Champix. I have heard of this before and its successes so I am excited to see how I do with it.
I decided that it might help to write the process down, get my thoughts and feelings out there. So this is my story, I hope you follow, enjoy and even join in!
Hello I am a heavy heavy smoker and I need help!
I went to my doctor the other day for a full check up. After being poked and proded for over an hour he started having a go at me for being a smoker and said my lungs weren't in great shape. As it turns out I have been thinking of quiting for some time now but need a helping hand (afraid of failing mainly).
The lovely doctor gave me a prescription for Champix. I have heard of this before and its successes so I am excited to see how I do with it.
I decided that it might help to write the process down, get my thoughts and feelings out there. So this is my story, I hope you follow, enjoy and even join in!
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