Today I feel different.
I lasted up until late last night without a smoke ... almost a whole smoke free day .. almost!
Then the hot flushes and panic set in, it honestly felt like I was withdrawing from crack cocaine not little old cigs! I gave in and smoked three not all at once of course but still! Not quite sure if I enjoyed them or not but I smoked them all the way through.
All in all smoke count for Day 4 was 3, another 50% decrease.
I return to my opening statement. I woke up this morning, not having taken my pill yet but I'm not reaching for the tobacco. Even though I only smoked 3 times yesterday I feel like I smoked 50. Very strange!! I guess champix is kicking in. I am feeling a little non smokerish, maybe im just experiencing dillusions, a side effect from the drug! Hey its better than feeling sick all the time like most people.
Very nervous about next week now, the withdrawel was very uncomfortable and I wont have a backout clause this time. Maybe I can get some morphine and knock myself out for a good month till its all over!
If I continue with my 50% daily decrease today I should have smoked 1.5 cigs ... yeah right
Thankyou to Richard who gave a simple suggestion to yesterday's challenge at first I laughed at such a simple idea but its not that bad. I might just give it a try!
If I have more than one reader, especially smokers or ex-smokers, Id love to hear your stories and that you do actually exist! I hope my friends are reading this and think about joining in, you know who you are (Ritchie) cough cough.
Come on people this is the world wide web and Im feeling so alone in my efforts to free myself from the demon grip of nic.
He he starting to lose it maybe .. I wonder what Zoe is like smoke free??
Anyway its 9pm popped morning and evening pills smoked one cig .. dunno if I liked that one either. The sensation I crave doesnt seem to be there but right now I still want another one! Not to worry I am still way ahead of my schedule with the program. In six days I will be climbing the walls and this blog should get interesting!
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Hi Zoe
ReplyDeleteThe important thing isn't that you're the fastest quitter. It really doesn't matter wheteher it takes 5 days, seven days or fourteen.
Do what you are doing about cutting down but don't torture yourself. The whole point of Champix is that it stops you'r body getting any reward from the nicotine and that in turn makes it easier to go without.
If it takes a while so be it. Would you have thought five days ago that you could survive on three of four or even ten cigs? You'r way ahead of where I was at day five and I've been quit for nearly two months.
I dont know how long you've smoked or how dedicated to smoking you were but it sounds like you've got this challenge sorted. Keep it up.
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